Hey Readers!
Its been awhile!! As most of you know I am officially Mrs. Stull now, although I was scared to death and I threatened to run away, Its the best decision I ever made Im the happiest I have ever been and the sad part is I didnt know how happy I truly really was till I saw my own wedding pictures. So the next part of the song after marriage is of course the baby carriage duh. Well we together have started trying and the last couple of days Ive prayed really hard of course everyone has their own opinion on this matter but I also feel like I want to explain something Im almost 25 years old my own plan was to have children of course ALONG time ago my own plan isnt always Gods plan because he knew better obviously lol. Now I am once again married and Bryan and I have enjoyed our year together alone and I have always always for as long as I remember have longed to be a mother. I have been completely guilty of being completely jealous of every mother around me, and have even gone as far as pushing special people in my life who have gotten pregnant away, jealousy is a horrible emotion but I dealt with it. Now i am beyond blessed with everyone of my friends kids in every possible way they bless my life beyond measure NOW i will finally be a real aunt in about a month now YAY! and this child i will love he will (kinda) be my flesh and blood and i love him more than words. I long to feel the excitement of knowing my husband and I have created LIFE and knowing that this beautiful thing God gives us is the best gift ever. I want to enjoy every mother thing you can possibly think of (yes even the bad) I want to feel the baby move inside me i think its the most beautiful thing Ive ever seen in my life is to watch a woman become a mother and a father become a father. Brys and I both know we want to be parents more than words we are both ready to be there, and now Ive got to give it to God because obviously he knows our lives and knows what we need better than we do. And with all of my friends advice even though Ill admit I have rolled my eyes I know with all of my heart they are right that i need not worry about this and that God will bless us with exactly what we need.. "Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.- Matthew 6:34. "For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to proper you and not to harm you, plans to give you home and a future."- Jeremiah 29:11.
"Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed."- Proverbs 16:3
Moving on, there is a TON of things going on in my life right now and lives might be changing and our family needs prayers more than anything. Lots of decisions are to be made and lots of unselfish understanding are to be understood. And I pray that every word that ive said has sunk in and that they have opened their heart and really heard my words. Ive been told I get listened too and I pray I have,I feel as though im above my years but when I look back at all Ive said I know that this all could not possibly be coming from me because before I speak I pray... Lord take my words because I have nothing. I really honestly believe if Ive made a difference its not me at all really but somehow he works out my tangled mumbled mess and makes my words come out that make sense and im even amazed. PRAYER WORKS PEOPLE. And I really honestly believe with prayers all of our families problems will all completely turn out for the better this is just a bump in the road for all of us. "Let Gods promises shine on your problems." and to end all of this jumbled up blog I will say this....
"Never Stop Praying."-1 Thessalonians 5:17
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