Its about to get real serious....

Hey Readers!
   This is my first ever blog. <insert hand clap now> haha. I used to have a xanga (yes I said a xanga) and Ive recently realized how much I miss blogging about the randomness of where my life is going and where its gone. Ive decided to share my life and some of my "seriousness" of things that have happened and that are going to happen not only for me...but also possibly for someone else who's going through or has gone through the difficulties I have and probably will go through. You may learn more than you've ever really wanted to know but if you don't like it don't read it.....you may enter in to my thoughts....now.....

The Beginning:

     When I look back over the last I dunno 6-7 years...I shake my head and think WOW, I sure am glad God knew what decisions I would make and where I would be now. Sometimes I have to ask myself how in the world did I ever get here. I am 24 years old and Ive been engaged three times now...even married and divorced (some of you may not know and some of you do know.) I am about to get married again. Being married and having kids is all Ive ever thought about (as some of my oldest friends know) it was a must happen for me and instead of trusting and walking with the Lord and trusting in him to lead me to the person he had prepared for me I had to go through a couple different tests and even learn from my mistakes and my heartache. I believe looking back he allowed me to make the bad decisions so I would appreciate what he had in store for me so much more than as if he just handed it to me. Through my first marriage I don't consider it an epic fail as most people do, I don't even consider it a mistake, I consider it a blessing really because through everything I went through I learned so much like what love really was.

      Skip forward to Summer 2010 ah the single life. I was doing great I had recently made a trip to Texas to see if I really wanted to move there and get away from the "horrible" small town I call home. When I came home from my trip I had a pretty BIG girl decision to make. Do I move away from everything and everyone that I love and start a life all my own all alone...or stay for everyone that I love. As you can see Texas didn't happen to me because to me family is my everything and I don't know what I would do without them. Little did I know God had a bigger plan than anything I could ever plan for myself. After I made the decision to stay home I went out on my own (which I had never done before and it was super scary) I found a little studio apartment which I grew to really love. It was all mine, I was happy, excited I could do it all on my own...but a couple things were missing. 1. I wasn't close to God and 2. I was alone. I had convinced myself I needed to be alone and I was OK alone. And I was.

     I decided to read a book that so many years ago I read and "Redeeming Love" If any of you ever wanna read the greatest love story ever (besides of course Jesus' love story for us) that is the book. I spent 2 days on my couch really reading and understanding what it was to be loved, it wasn't a compliment every now and then from some guy who says your pretty, It wasn't going out to the bar to see which drunk guy you could get, I'm talking everlasting no matter what love, that really I didn't think existed after everything I had been through. I swore no one would ever love me enough to marry me again. Why would God bless me with such a wonderful man after everything I had done, I mean I had already been married once what guy would want a girl who's already been through all that??? So I prayed "Lord you know my heart when will you send me my Michael (the man character in the book)? When will I have that real love and when will you bless me with someone who loves you and puts you first and puts me second. Lord you have him and when you send him to me it will be on your time and not my own I'm done looking Lord You can send him my way and will you let me know when I've met him?"

      2 weeks later I get a friend request on facebook from a young man named Bryan Stull. oh you already know you try to get all the info you can before you even talk to them like "what mutual friends do we have" " is he cute?" hahaha you know you all do it. A couple days went by when I was hanging with the best friend and I said really?? whats the point in asking someone to be your friend if you aren't going to talk to them I have no idea who this guy is....a week went by and all the sudden I have one new message it was that Bryan kid....great I thought what the heck is he going to say. As I read through the message and he said he remembered me from school we began to talk back and forth and as I walked out of the break room at work something just told me "Miranda this is your Michael. This is the man I have made for you." I smiled to myself. I knew God had finally sent me the man I was meant to be with. A week or 2 longer and we were dating. 4 months later he popped the question and I wear a ring.

      Satan doesn't like when you do what God wants, He began to make me think what about your single life? What about all the GUYS you haven't met? Haven't you already did this and failed once? What will everyone think of you? I had a really hard time and I got so confused and completely off track and I was so unsure of everything until I had a friend who was going through things that i had once gone through and be treated the way i was once treated and BAM just like that God said "uh Miranda remember what I told you? I have blessed you with the man I've made for you and a man who loves you unconditionally" If you are doing what God wants and you get confused just remember God isnt a God of confusion, and all your questions of something you were so sure of probably isnt God at all.

      So now that you have the low down on where I am now in my life....I'm getting married September 24th and so my new life begins......